For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known. (1 Cor. 13:12)
“How is school going,” you might ask. I am a loofah attempting to soak up a deluge of water, losing much of what is sent my way. I am being enlightened daily to the fact that I know about as much as a four-letter expletive. Nonetheless, I am learning much and am very happy to be where I am. There are tough questions being asked of me, and I don’t have answers to them all – to most, in fact. And that IS OKAY. I’m learning to live in the grey for the moment – hoping for future clarity, rejoicing in clarity as if it shows itself in the present, and beginning to understand that in many things I will see dimly until I am face to face with God (I will be looking down and to the left).
Many of the questions coming my way are very basic questions, but the most important questions in life are basic questions. What are my beginnings in faith and life? What do I believe? How do I relate to people and why do I do so in those ways? How do I relate to God and why do I do so in those ways? How is my relation to people related to my relation to God? Do I want fries with that? Why am I spending so much time on Facebook? And, of course, the key question of Mars Hill Graduate School: what is my story?
I’m starting slowly; I have many questions to ask now, but have even more questions that I do not yet know how to enunciate. It will take a long time, a lifetime, but it is worth it. If half of my hope in Jesus is true, then the journey to embody my beliefs are worth more than my lifetime. Now off to sleep.